15 November 2006

Today I am incompetent

I'm writing from school.

I feel like shit. I find it hard to believe that I am a qualified teacher because I definitely feel like I can't do it.

I'm worn odwn, I'm frustrated and I want to hit the students. I probably shouldn't admit that in public. But since I haven't yet hit anyone, I am absolving myself of any culpability.

I know that I was having a rough time when I got to school, but I don't think it was all me. I always walk into class with a smile like I'm ready to start and glad to be there. But today, it failed from the start.

It's pretty sad when you rely on a couple of students to be absent just to get through the day, but that's what one of the grade 7 classes is like. There are students who are not fit to be in a classroom with others. They can't work quietly, that can't listen with commenting, they don't respect anyone, and they don't care about anything.

I don't know where they got this attitude, but today I am fed up with it.

If it weren't for the fact that I don't actively teach tomorrow, I'd probably call in sick.

I hope there's beer in the fridge at home.

11 November 2006

My computer is dying

For real.

Something odd happened last night that resulted in needing to reboot. I thought it just stalled in the middle of going to sleep. It turns out that something more serious is in the works.

When I rebooted, I was told about the "SMART Failure" that is "Predicted on Hard Disk".

Andrew looked it up. It's not good. Basically a major awful crash is impending. I'm trying to do everything I can to get as much info and as many programs as I possibly can before the end.

On the bright side, I have an extended warranty. A joke to most people; a saviour to me. It was offered to me when I got my computer because it was the shelf model. It was free. I was happy to take it, since it was free. And now it's good that I did. I called Staples earlier and they gave me a case number. I have to bring my computer in and they will send it away to get fixed. I don't know what that means. I just hope that it will return intact, or that I get a new one out of the deal. I just can't afford a new one. :(

So, despite the fact that I don't really blog that often lately anyway, I probably won't be blogging for a while. At the least, I'll be getting some sort of replacement -- but I don't know what it will entail.

06 November 2006

I like taxes

It's true, sometimes I'd rather keep my entire paycheque instead of losing 1/4 of it to the federal government, but overall, I'm glad I pay taxes.

It gives me the right to complain when my elected representatives mess up. After all, I'm their boss.

It allows me not to worry when I have the flu or gangrene, or whatever passes for serious illness these days -- our medicare might not be the best in the world, but it's better than dying because I can't afford to go to the doctor.

And it allowed me to get a decent education that helped me get a decent job, that I'm very much enjoying.

When I'm not plotting to maim little children.